plan a is fading; plan b on deck!

Ah, the joy of a birth plan. I had one last time and it certainly did not go according to plan. So, as I discussed my birth plan this time around I ensured we would discuss plan b, c, d, etc...

Having an emergency c-section with double l, I did not automatically want to go the c-section route this time around. I wanted to avoid it completely, but knew it could be a reality. I appreciated my doctor for being open-minded in a practice that had a "policy" against VBACs for women who never had a previous vaginal delivery. Since he is a partner, he made the decision to opt out of policy and explore all my options. He is wonderful and I feel blessed to have him as a doctor!

So, here was the plan --

{recap of LL's birth} I fully dilated and pushed with double l. Due to his rather large head, he was not budging, even when the doctor on call used the K cup to try and get him out. We were venturing into a dangerous point as my little man's heart rate was dropping and the doctor gave me three more pushes. With no movement, I was rushed to the OR and the rest is history.

This time around ~ Should I dilate and her head become engaged just like the last time, my doctor agreed that I could attempt to push. He felt confident that if I agreed to the assistance of forceps he could get her out. I agreed. But we both thought with my previous history of preterm labor and the fact I dilated so early with strong contractions, I would go into labor around 37 weeks. As you know that never happened! We agreed I would not go past my due date, so a repeat c-section was scheduled for the morning of my due date. Here I am days away from my due date, 4CM, 80% efface, and contracting on and off for weeks. My hopes of a successful VBAC are fading quickly and my anxiety of surgery is becoming stronger every day.

But its all out of my hands. I will continue to pray and give my worries to God. And most importantly look forward to the day my daughter is born and I get to hold her!!! however she maybe delivered...